hi!  i wanted to thank all of you who sent me birthday greetings!  it feels really nice to get your emails.  thank you thank you.  now i am 28 although that doesn't really feel different.  it feels younger than it appeared from afar.  perhaps that is always the way it goes, even when you turn 80.  you still you.  one more trip round the spiral track right back to where i began.  the stars were quite gorgeous last night.  sometimes, i am inside all night long and never see the stars.  last night as i walked out to the studio, i couldn't help but be struck by their beauty.  they are so far away yet right here burned in my eyes.  like starry memories.  i stopped to think how we're floating in space, without a clue as to why or what we are to do.  and i feel for planet earth right now, cause we are quite confused and we tend to be short and irritable with each other since we have this nagging empty incomplete feeling inside, like "what am i doing here, really, and what's the point if it all fades away."  and i totally get that.  i understand our empty feeling.  and it makes sense.  i do not feel bad about it, i just feel for us.  we do not know what we are to do.  no matter!  we are figuring out what feels good and what feels bad.  if you ask me, we will soon know that it feels better to share.  it feels better to help.  it feels better to love ourselves.  and then we see how similar we are to others...and then we love them.  and that feels the best....i love you.  i know you are doing your best to carry on and create a wonderful life for yourself.  another year.  another step closer to filling the gaps.  see you soon!
chris

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