i open my eyes and see such beauty beyond words, feel strange and inept when i try to utter my heart song.  can't come close.  let us remember this beauty.  how dark and cold the world can be when we are caught up in the games of winning approval and acclaim.  accomplishments come and go.  flesh returns to earth.  dust is pulled up again into form and covers the earth as fertile fields for new life.  all around us.  within you.  without you.  it is here and nothing can be done to return for we have never been apart.  all there is to do is to remember.  life is whole.  is there a division between the sprawling world of nature and the concrete world of man?  is life cut up into little pieces?  ah, no, we know better.  we know this is merely an illusion.  part of the design which provides means of forgetting which creates the need to remember.  remember what?  remember life is sacred and whole.  nothing outside of life.  life is all.  no-life, or "death" is part of this magical creation.  or should i say, magical existence.  creation calls to mind the beginning of something, when in truth there is no beginning and there is no end.  there is the cycle.  endless cycle of the rise and fall of form.  form meaning these things of the universe which come to pass, such as stars and planets, life forms and inanimate objects.  there is an animating force beyond form which we call energy.  we could call it purple jello or starberry balloons for it is truly beyond understanding.  in fact, life in all its million manifestations is truly beyond comprehension.  to remind ourselves daily of this mystery and gift and magic is necessary in this world of forgetting.  we have forgotten we are part of this Sacred Movement of Life.  can you see when you open your eyes?  can you see it?  can you feel it within you?  do you know what it is?  can you hear me in your heart as i communicate this to you.  i am speaking to the world within you that has been ignored in modern times.  this life is magic.  why is it here?  how is it here?  can you remember every day that you are part of this sacred movement of life?  there is no one to blame for this great forgetting.  forgetting our nature as holy members of sacred life is part of the cosmic dance.  no one is to blame.  it is part of the design.  to suddenly remember this Gift of Life is Precious is the beauty of life itself.  let us not blame ourselves or others, generations past and present.  let us remind ourselves daily of our gift.  let us not toil amongst ourselves, fighting, lashing out, bitter blood boiling to burst.  it is ok.  it is alright.  we are moving forwards, not backwards.  we are remembering.  we will become whole again and we will make such a beautiful world for ourselves because we will also remember our great suffering which arose from our great forgetting and we shall know to avoid forgetting by consciously reminding ourselves daily of the sacred nature of Life.  forgetting this Sacred Holy Life is suffering.  yet, holy life is all there is.  no one and no thing are outside of this Sacred Life.  can you see?  can you feel the truth being written here?  how does this resonate with you?  can you feel your powerful true nature beginning to awaken?  can you sense the magic within you without you?  We Are Alive.  Rejoice.  Remember.  Return.

i went to see Lovey and he said, "hi there.  how are you today?  i am doing well.  I am listening to "Blonde On Blonde" the Bob Dylan album.  pretty good stuff.  ever heard of him?  i have read a few good books in the last couple weeks.  the first was "New Earth" by Eckhart Tolle.  dang yo, very good.  it redefines spiritual writing in my opinion.  the next book i read was "Ishmael" by Daniel Quinn.  It's about a gorilla who teaches about humanity and the history and potential future of the planet.  very good.  both of these books changed my view of life in a fundamental way.  somehow i had never seen society in the way Daniel Quinn's character Ishmael sees it.  The insight into our common history, how we got to be the way we are, and what we can do now to bring about a meaningful future, is eye opening to say the least.  i highly recommend reading "Ishmael" it might change your view of the world for the better.  after that i read the sequel to "Ishmael" called "My Ishmael" in which Ishmael has a different pupil, a twelve year old girl, in fact.  Quinn makes interesting observations on human nature and the structure of society, although i much prefer the original book.  however, i found myself drawn to Quinn's vision of the world, and so i found another one of his books called "The Story of B" about a religious figure sent to investigate the alleged Antichrist.  i am almost finished with it and i'm enjoying it more than "My Ishmael" and this book too offers interesting insights into the life of the world.  i like, i like.  anyhoo.  reading is fun fun fun!  if you're not much of a reader, i suggest finding a book that interests you, because it really does engage the mind and a good book can be a teacher.  anyhow.  life is good."  that's what he said, and then he said, "Charles, i appreciate you coming to visit me here.  it's not so bad being locked up with a bunch of quote unquote lunatics."  and i said, "Lovey, you are my half brother, and i like the listen to your musings.  i'll be back next wednesday at three."