how does it feel right now to sit where you are?  can you feel the bottom of your feet?  can you sense the subtle vibration inside your hands?  if you slowly start noticing your body and what it feels like from the inside, you might notice something quite magical is taking place.  if you close your eyes and feel the aliveness inside of you, it will intensify and slowly you will become aware of the most beautiful sensation.  it is like a slow and steady orgasm.  right here.  right now.  it is in you.  it is more beautiful than a purple sun setting into the blue-green sea.  can you notice the feeling?  at first, it might be so subtle you're not sure what to look for, but the more you focus on it, the more you will start to see what is truly there all the time.  the feeling of being alive.  this moment here inside your skin is bliss.  feel it.  can you feel your face and the tension you have stored under your eyes?  can you relax your skin?  can you feel that your nose is slightly colder than the rest of your face?  how bout them eyeballs.  pretty funky, no?  as i begin to notice my being, i am transported to a different realm.  a realm of right here right now ecstatic presence of being.  it is here.  it is there all the while as we drift through our days without a sense of purpose, furious at one another for getting in the way or holding each other back.  holding each other back from what?  from climbing the corporate ladder?  from getting the attention from the boy or girl of our desire?  from getting the house or the car?  from getting respect?  and what are these things that we believe to be so important?  status?  self-esteem?  love?  if you acquire the things you seek, do they fulfill the empty feeling within?  or does that feeling return shortly after acquisition only to be replaced by more wanting, more searching, more emptiness? have you ever stopped to think about this cycle of inevitable suffering?  what is it for?  why do we seek?  what are we looking for?  a positive sense of who we are?  if we let these things define us, what will happen when they fade away, as all things naturally do?  all the roles we play will come to an end.  all the imagined success and all the bitter failure.  all this comes to pass as the stars disappear into the blue morning sky and the sun sinks beneath the hills for the moon to ascend and spin around the earth forever rising forever falling.  all the while, here within us is a feeling which is beyond time.  here in this moment.  close your eyes.  notice your thoughts struggling to bring you back to what is "important."  "i must convince him that he is wrong and i am right."  "i mustn't forget to pay the cell phone bill."  "i am uglier than a charred rhino."  "is it wednesday or september?"  incessant thoughts!  these are not bad thoughts.  they are merely the struggle of an unaware entity.  unaware of what you are, thoughts think they can fill up your life with meaning.  but there is no meaning.  there is only being.  you are what you are.  you are ALREADY who you are.  it is here now.  can you feel it?  how does it feel?  beautiful.  beyond words.  a magic hum of electricity.  like an ocean of joy.  here you are.  you have only to pay attention.  my loves.

chris